Hi. This is me. Remember? I used to post nice things at around 8.15am daily Greenwich Median time.
Amazingly enough, there are still people visiting this site even with my horrible empty shell of sporadic postings. I feel loved. I never seem to have enough time lately to do all the things I love. Wanted to do daily sessions of tarot, but it takes way too long a time to do the spread and interpret – it is roughly an hour per spread. Want to make at least a pair of earrings to wear to Ibiza – no avail yet. Need to practice Been so tired lately – must be the rest-less weekend where I did not get my siestas but spent time shopping instead. Must not forget to siesta..:/.
Other than that, another thing that weighs heavily on my mind is the perpetual job/career/life dillema. There has been many happenings but no endings, happy or not. I spend time preparing, researching, thinking…..ableit in a half-arsed approach . It has been unpleasant to say the least. And obviously un-bloggable. There has been happenings in bacon’s career/job as well, and again, no endings, but that’s probably for the best. I sometimes feel that I should just drastically change careers and just be a stripper. Night working = more afternoon siestas! And the adoration of men who stuff bills down your knickers – would be £5 a pop each since there is no £1 bill…imagine throwing £1 & £2 coins on stage at a scantily clad girl.
No, really. I am ok. Not really thinking of being a stripper.My self esteem is still intact.
Oh, and I so screwed up in my tarot reading gypsy pretending – giving dreyb wrong cards and making her depressed. I am so suck aren’t I? Anyway, I calculated the wrong cards for me as well, and got wrong lifecards. Lifecards are calculated from your date of birth; stating lessons that you need to learn in this lifetime. So yes, if we have the same birthday on the same year, we would have the same lifecards. My initial (wrong) cards states that I need to learn to grab the world by its balls and be more introspective – if I get any ballsy I think I will start to sprout a beard – what is it trying to tell me??
After hours pouring over my books, I had at last got a definative of what my Life Lessons Cards are – The Star & Strength. Excerpts from learntarot.com:
STRENGTH
Usually we think of strength in physical terms – big arms, powerful legs – but there is also inner strength. Inner strength comes from an exercise of the heart muscle. It is perseverance, courage, resolve and composure – qualities that help us endure when times are tough. In the past, a person with inner strength was commonly said to have character; he or she could be counted on in the darkest moments. Card 8 represents this energy of quiet determination. Strength is not a flashy card, but one that is solid and reliable.
Card 8 also represents patience and compassion. Getting angry is easy when events turn sour, but dealing calmly with frustration takes great strength. So does accepting others and forgiving mistakes. We need strength to mold situations softly. The Chariot controls through mastery and authority. Card 8 is more subtle, even loving. Notice how the lion (itself a symbol of strength) is being guided and tamed by the woman’s gentle hands.
Card 8 will appear in a reading when its qualities are needed. It can be a reminder not to despair or give up. You have the inner strength to endure and triumph. If you are pushing too hard, you need to withdraw for the moment and be patient. If other people or circumstances are driving you crazy, remember the strength that comes with love and forbearance. These will see you through the hardest moments.
STAR
People have always looked to the stars as a source of inspiration and hope. There is something about their twinkling light that draws us out of ourselves and up into a higher plane. When we turn our eyes heavenward, we no longer feel the distress of earth. The Star reminds me of the clear, high voice of a soprano. There is something otherworldly about it. All the harshness and density of everyday life has been refined away leaving only the purest essence. After being exposed to the Star, we feel uplifted and blessed.
In readings, the Star is most welcome when grief and despair have overwhelmed us. In our darkest moments, we need to know that there is hope,that there is light at the end of the tunnel. The Star is the opposite of the Devil who strips us of our faith in the future. Card 17 holds out the promise that we can eventually find peace of mind. The Star also reminds us to open our heart and release our fears and doubt. If you have been holding back in any way, now is the time to give generously.
It is important to remember that the Star is inspiring, but it is not a card of practical solutions or final answers. Truly without hope we can accomplish nothing, but hope is only a beginning. When you see Card 17, know that you are on the right track. Your goals and your aspirations are blessed, but to realize them, you must take positive action. Use the light of the Star to guide you in your efforts.
Sounds better. I need to learn patience as a virtue. Which I, and anyone that has met me in real knows already. I need to understand that to have hope is a good thing, to action towards realizing them is essential – I must have faith.And I needed that now more than ever.
So, anyone for a lifecard tarot reading? Readings are private – email me your birthdate with or without a question. As I do not need to concentrate whilst choosing card (it is chosen by the number on your birthdate) ; these lessons are defined at birth, and act as a guiding light. I, for one, feel that since I have been learning tarot, my spirituality had multiplied, and my intuition is more honed which is bizzare at times. More topic of discussion with the mil who is into all these spiritual inner energy past lives things as well.
Speaking of which. I was addressed as the Daugher in Law in public for the first time the other day.
Strange.
Update: And it rains in Ibiza. I am so lucky
